Hey people, I'm back posting some updates for the blog. How's Syawal so far? It's been really great but the festive mood has been dying out. Probably during the weekends, most families will open up their houses to host a banquet for a Raya Open House. Looking forward to it if there are any invitations at all.
I wanted to talk something about life in general. As a person who are born in this world, we never really know what our purpose is about living in this world. Some say we are just here temporarily and most believe that we will return to God Almighty Allah SWT in akhirat, living our eternal lives there. I learned a lot last night about my life in general and what I wanted to be in the future and how I am gonna live in this world. Am I gonna survived? For all I know, I've always been very dependent on my parents. I live with them, they provide me shelter, food and hospitality. Yet I never truly learn how to do all they did to me and here I am, reaching half of a normal human life, with no knowledge or talent or skill to make it through this world.
Someone made me realised that I will never grow up if I never start to think and do things on my own, I will forever be dependant on them. We are mere mortals, sooner or later we would expire and return to God. That made me realised that I will be alone if they are no longer in this world, how will I survive if I never try and take things on my own. Soon I'll be having a career and that career would lead me to be someone responsible and many responsibilities will have to be taken care of. I alone, must learn and grasp things on my own to survive. I have to think by myself, make decisions by myself, feed myself and live my whole life responsibly without any helf. Survival is vital for oneself, without that instinct and urge to do things on your own, you will be left behind and alone.
I realised that I have to change the way I think, the way I live, the way I act and the way that would drag me in this world. A change is a must and I firmly believe that leaving your past life behind and moving on will help you in this life. There is no way to always stay in the past and live in it. It meant nothing and it will only bring you nothing.
I thank my love for giving me the advise, the motivation and the scolding to help to become someone better in this world, someone responsible with a purpose in his life. Someone that is believable and will bring happiness to his own life. I really love you sayang, soo much. I've learned a lot and I regret everything. It's time to move on boy, you're a grown up. You have a career, you have your responsibilities and you have a new girlfriend. Make changes and try to appreciate them more.